&I'm quite aware we're dying .
Blame it on the weather, but I'm a mess
And this February darkness has me hating everyone
And I know I need your comfort, but this drama makes me sick
And the longer I lay here I know it's harder to get up
without you
Lose another day here
Lose another year here
I'm with you
Find me something out there that's making sense
And it's just another trend carefully hidden in your dress
And the cycles never ending and the fashions overdone
And the further that I run away, the further I'll come back
to shelter.
You are the fire on my apartment floor
Sixteen stories, I'd rather burn than fall
It isn't fate that took us all by storm
It's just the turn of a card
Goodbye, old friend
Goodbye, goodnight
I'll move on
You'll call it fate, I'll call it karma
We had our time, it was fun
while it lasted
These memories will never leave me
Don't be sad
cause life goes on, life goes on
It's getting too late
Tomorrow is here
Somedays i love you
Somedays i need you
Somedays i just want to hate you
But most of the time i dont know.
You need to know that i'll always love you,
I didnt mean to leave but i couldnt stay,
Reasons.
Seems like things will never get better,
We're both tired, i dont think we'll last another round of this
Maybe some things weren't meant to be.
Eitherways,
I hope you get your fairytale ending.
But they said a hero'd save us .
E
COWS GO MOO !
30.10.06
12:17 AM
You should have done this long ago
& days pass so fast nowadays
& there's nothing worth remembering.
& no, nothings certain anymore
& dont promise me things you cant deliver
& why ain't you calling when i need you the most?
Well Uncle Andy came over from Canada today, and i was pretty hostile to him because i didnt want him to see, but now i'm angry with myself because all i wanted to do was to talk give him a big hug and spend some time together, well i'll be seeing him in 24weeks, wth.
& Keeran mad me day today !
[c=4][i]|||KIREN playing the jealously game [/i][/c] says:
its fun disturbing my childhood crush
see it ain't hard to make my day (:
& here's the really important part :
He was my childhood crush too !
I LOVE YOU CHILDHOOD BESTFRIEND (:
& i miss all the times we spent & its really sad to see us calrose gdners drifting.
i really hope i can make it for trick or treating this tues,
I MISS YOU ALL :(
&&&&&& . i just learnt something terrible!
Keeran was the one responsible for Ronald's two broken arms!
haha, FOUR years late but, oh wells.
FOR ALL THE GIRLS OUT THERE
this is KEERAN
http://y-rated.blogspot.com
Honey why you calling me so late
It's kinda hard to talk right now
Honey why you crying is everything okay
I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud
Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
Let it Die
never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And yes I dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me will it start a fight
No, I don't think she has a clue
Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
Let it die
never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
Let it die
never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
(let it die,I never wanna say goodbye)
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
Honey why you calling me so late
& its too late now.
No its not gonna work out anymore,
so here's my goodbye .
E
COWS GO MOO !
22.10.06
10:41 PM
Lost in confusion
Today was an ordinary day made special by a few special people in my life. ldf ; Kelvin.
And i thought that today would just be a ldf outing, like shopping and pigging out. But you guys really gave me a suprise. I never knew that you guys cared so much about me and planned this so long age. And as i said, it was just yesterday when i was feeling all along and insignificant. (too many other thoughts&feelings so heck with it) So thankyou for spending thewhole afternoon with me and putting up with my constant cheating (: And really i hope you guys know how much this means to me. & i know that we will continue to stick together and grow closer. I love you people (: And you people mean so much to me i never want to let you go .
And i know that i havent been a really good friend and i dont deserve all this but you need to know how greatful i am
Kelvin : I'll know you'll never see this, but i'm sorry today was just a slipshot affair. And i'm sorry i dont have enough courage have a decent conversation or meal with you. And i know im not much of a friend, and i wish i could be a better friend, but it feels too goddamn awkward. Nevertheless, thankyou for all the presents (:
And its been too long since i've been kepping things all bottled up inside. And all these things just pile up inside, but no, i'm not gonna let them out. I rather let them tear me up inside and i'm sorry that these things make me such a bitter person at times. (sorry cinch&many more)
And i hope you know that the the reason i'm not talking you you is not because i dont care anymore, but there are just too many things that make me hesitate. And you cant expect me to make the first move when I dont even know whats happening or how you feel. And it feels like i'm paying a game without knowing the rules. I'm torn between the thoughts of holding on and the constant signs that tell me to let go. And most of all, i dont wanna hurt you anymore.
Stranger than your sympathy
And this is my apology
I killed myself from the inside out
And all my fears have pushed you out
And I wished for things that I don't need
And what I chase won't set me free
And I get scared but I'm not crawlin' on my knees
Oh, yeah
Everything's all wrong, yeah
Everything's all wrong, yeah
Where the hell did I think I was?
And stranger than your sympathy
Take these things, so I don't feel
I'm killing myself from the inside out
And now my head's been filled with doubt
It's hard to lead the life you choose
When all you luck's run out on you
And you can't see when all your dreams are coming true
Oh, yeah
It's easy to forget, yeah
When you choke on the regrets, yeah
Who the hell did I think I was?
And stranger than your sympathy
And all these thoughts you stole from me
And I'm not sure where I belong
And no where's home and I'm all wrong
And I was in love with things I tried to make you believe I was
And I wouldn'twould be the one to kneel before the dreams I wanted
And all the dark and all the lies were all the empty things disguised as me
A big thankyou to those who wished (:
though one day early .
E
COWS GO MOO !
14.8.06
11:26 PM
School was slack. Cinch is fun! Wifey chased me around the bloody level and I had to go shoeless because she took them, so I took her pouch thingie. Rather hilarious, Tilda had to be the mediator, hoho. J8, Click. OMG, never watch a sad movies with me or Wifey cause we will cry like hell alot. Freaking embarrassing okay, plus i was blowing my nose, damn loudly =x Oh ya, lucien made me scream damn loudly in Ice Lemon Tee. Freaking embrassing. Okay that all.
E
COWS GO MOO !
11:26 PM
School was slack. Cinch is fun! Wifey chased me around the bloody level and I had to go shoeless because she took them, so I took her pouch thingie. Rather hilarious, Tilda had to be the mediator, hoho. J8, Click. OMG, never watch a sad movies with me or Wifey cause we will cry like hell alot. Freaking embarrassing okay, plus i was blowing my nose, damn loudly =x Oh ya, lucien made me scream damn loudly in Ice Lemon Tee. Freaking embrassing. Okay that all.
E
COWS GO MOO !
12.8.06
1:00 PM
So long sweet summer,
I stumbled upon you and gratefully basked in your rays.
So long sweet summer,
I feel into you
Now you're gracefully fading away
Okay, so I've been down with the cold for some time. Well and occasional fevers but I'm so proud of myself for pressing on and going for cca, although it wasnt as good as I hoped. Evaluation made partner&I more determined to prove them wrong. We're definately not the best but we'll try and we know we'll see eye to eye one day, right? And, WIFEY, dont be angry! Yes I know you care that's why you wanted me to go home ):
Fancy this comming form a last-minute person like myself but, I HATE LAST MINTUE PEOPLE WHO CALL AT 11PM+++ AND EXPECT YOU TO HELP THEM INForm EVEYONE ABOUT CHANGES AND THEN EXPECT YOU TO DO THEM A FAVOUR.
And sometimes I wonder how I managed to brush off all the signs and sink myself deeper into this pit I've dug since oh so long ago. I guess my life is very much filled with confusion, deception, irony, contradiction and lies. Yes I'm pretty happy that way. _, I miss your presence in my everday life so much, y'know? Somehow, after all this while, it seems like all we have is each other, like we've ended up right where we started and this rollercoaster ride was just a strain of my sainity&yours, # .
& You, I still think You don't. But for some damn reason I need You to know that I still love You, I dont .
Hey thanks,
Thanks for that summer.
It's cold where you're going
I hope that you're heart's always warm
And quite truthfully I'm drained. Physically and mentally.
E
COWS GO MOO !
8.8.06
11:49 PM
Put your emotions where your mouth is
Today was okay, MANY SAID FLAG WAS GOOD ! :B
Damn unexpected, it wasnt Char&I's best raise, but nevertheless, I LOVE YOU CHAR, and sorry for being late despite your morning call, thus making you worry.
&&& krys said it was the best raise in np so far, this made char&I very happy people ;D sorry for hao lian-ing
WELL DONE SNNPCC ;D
Then library with puay char val shiyun and vvn to plan JTC07. I'm excited, the beginning of yet another beautiful partnership :D Had the usual, oreo bing and tip top at the playground. hoho, I love THE FLAGBEARERS and our usual meal ;D
And after that partner&I went to the coffee shop to discuss cause we were too darn lazy to walk back to the library. Damn funny, We(rateher I) kept laughing and we were like trying berhanti in the coffee shop. Well I like my partner loads, but I'm still damn scared we dont have mo qi you know! ): WE CAN DO IT! <3
AM I THE ONLY FREAKING PERSON WHO MISSES OBS?
I really rather be an OBS instructor and isolate myself from the world, yeah, seems fun. I really miss Battuta like hell loads.
Regina Val Jun Fei Olivai Inez Si'en Jas Na Wang Yingchen Stephie Mich Nat Peiqi Jocelyn KENNY
Funny how bonded we've become within 5 days. You guys are amazing, I love every single one of you!
Life's an excuse to get hurt, and to hurt. Do you like to hurt? I do. I do. So hurt me now.
E
COWS GO MOO !